Baby Graham numero dos

i can hardly remember when genevieve

was this little string bean.

teeny, tiny, and oh so perfect in every way.

(she still is...not so tiny but still perfect)

I can't get over how lucky I am that I get another one.

I'm still wondering why Heavenly Father thought I was capable the first time

Baby number 2 (ah it still gives me butterflies just saying it) has been much different in many ways.

with genevieve neither Joe or I were prepared to hear the news that we would be parents. I know that neither one of us felt prepared and didn't have a clue what to expect. Genevieve was a surprise to say the least (turns out a very good and welcomed surprise) but a surprise none the less.

After looking at the pink plus sign with genevieve I have to admit that I was heart broken.  I feel so selfish admitting that now but if i'm being honest that is really how I felt. In my little selfish mind and heart I thought I was loosing my youth. Fortunately, I was so wrong.

This time...

It is a much different experience to read negative pregnancy test after negative pregnancy test to finally one month stumble upon a positive one. That little negative sign can be so discouraging.

Baby number 2s story goes a little something like this...

Joe was at school, I was indulging in some Kardashians. For some reason, one moment I was lost in Kim's large behind and the next I was off the couch headed for our last pregnancy test hidden in the closet. I took the test, waited three minutes and low and behold that sad lonely little negative line appeared. disappointing...

The night went on and before I realized it Joe was about to come home. I didn't want him to know I wasted another pregnancy test so I went to go hide the evidence at the bottom of the garbage can.  However, this time when I went back the test was no longer a sad lonely little negative line but was accompanied by a very very faint positive line.I didn't want to believe it and get my hopes all up. I pulled out the instruction manual and decided I needed further proof. Joe picked up two more tests on the way home and when he walked through the door. I was bouncing all over the place anxious for his second opinion.

Was it positive? He didn't think so.

Second test down and right away the positive sign filled the little window.

it was so beautiful.

i was so excited.

i didn't even have time to pull up my pants before I ran out jumping and waving around the stick for joe to see. that man needs to be smacked upside the head, he still didn't believe it. i was bawling and it was so wonderful that this pregnancy my tears were joyful ones. I wanted to give genevieve a sibling close to her age so badly.

Joe like I said needed further proof. Take one more in the morning.

Five am rolled around and I couldn't wait anymore I got up and what do you know it was positive and i was elated and joe was snoring. i woke up the poor soul but he wasn't really in the mood to celebrate.

however, now that he has had sometime to let it sink in, I think he is just as excited as I am. Although, I think instead of seeing a pink plus sign he just sees a dollar sign.

Don't worry hunny we will make it work!

I am so overjoyed with this wonderful news. I know more of what to expect this time. I know there will be many bumps along the road but in the end the little person joe and I created is so worth it.

(even puking upwards of 4 times a day)

Unfortunately, the second child doesn't bring as much excitement to everyone else. I had such a hard time coming to terms with my first pregnancy and to top it off I felt miserable so i didn't feel like celebrating much or really telling anyone. Now I wish I would have enjoyed it and relished every ones excitement for our family. However, this time I am so happy that I have had a very hard time keeping it a secret

(which I didn't for long)

I am 9 weeks along and Due June 27. 

 I have already had the opportunity of seeing the heartbeat

 and we will get another ultra sound in a week!

I am sicker than a dog, happier than a horse (is that a saying?), super tired, pretty out of shape, bulging at the mid line (already!) and gosh dang it, I sure wouldn't have it any other way.

I really hope it is a girl because I wish I had a sister so badly and i would love to give genevieve one but honestly, happy either way as long as I get to hold a healthy little baby in 7 or so months.

I told genevieve she was going to be a big sister and she just smiled at me.

I think she is almost as excited as I am. or not.

Anyways, we can't wait to welcome another baby graham into this family.